Owning My Story

Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.

I think there are some who don’t want me to share my story, who don’t want to hear it, don’t want others to hear, don’t want to be reminded of the ugliness that is.  Well, too bad!


Harsh Sentence?

I just read an article on Jared Fogel, you know the scumbag Subway guy that molested all of those children.  He is appealing his 16 year sentence.  The government responded to his appeal by pointing to some of his text messages he had sent to an adult escort service saying he would “pay big” for 14 or 15 year old boys or girls.  Another text he stated “If they can and you get me 16 or below, I’ll give you 400 at least”. Continue reading “Harsh Sentence?”

A Child Can Survive Almost Any Thing.

Pretty fitting……


Child of the night-time,

Sobbing herself to sleep

Asking herself the questions,

That only make her weep.

No one understands her,

Or even wants to know

All of the scary secrets

Hiding down below.

She’s a survivor,

Living by her wits;

Nursing her wounds,

When torn to bits.

She’s going underground,

And going to stay awhile.

When she surfaces,

She’ll have a fake smile.

She’ll play all the games,

Others want to play,

And lose her “real self”

While others have their way.

She’s smart enough to know

She’s never going to win.

She’ll give up all her needs,

And forget, “What might have been.”

For the past has taught her well,

And broken her in half.

“Only I can save my self,”

She says with a laugh.


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imagesJust a quick update on Frankie and his situation, unfortunately since our last team meeting the parents haven’t made any of their visitation appointments.  Because of this, the agency which was facilitating the visitations have discontinued their services due to non-compliance.  I think this probably just reiterates the parents decision to allow the fosters to adopt Frankie.  However, by law the state has to continue to provide them opportunities to see him until their next hearing which is still a few months away so they will be assigned a new agency.  It will be interesting to see if they both to attend any of the visits with the new agency.

I talked with the foster dad today and he says they are pushing forward with the adoption. Because this isn’t something they had planned for they are working on getting the finances together to do this.  Too bad we can’t make the bio-parents pay for it!

Frankie is doing well, growing stronger every day.   Makes my heart happy!


I borrowed this off of another blog I was reading today.  I know y’all are probably sick of hearing about forgiveness because I am definitely sick of talking about it BUT….please pay special attention to the last paragraph of her post.

Joining up the A to Z Challenge, and the fact that this is Sexual Assault Awareness Month, I am blogging throughout April on the theme of sexual assault – and making my way through the alphabet while I do so. Forgiveness is something I’ve been giving a lot of thought to lately. When I say […]

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Life After Abuse

downloadSo a lot of people seem to think I need to forgive him. I understand where they are coming from…….. to an extent. They seem to think if I forgive I won’t feel the pain and effects the abuse has on me. What I want all of you to understand is I don’t experience these things daily, anymore. There was a time where it pretty much consumed me and had a huge impact on my life. It no longer does. Why? Continue reading “Life After Abuse”

Sharing Isn’t Easy


I think everyone is waiting for me to share more of the horror which I called childhood but I just haven’t been able to bring myself to write much lately. I guess thinking about it and writing what little I have written brought back a lot more feelings than I thought it would. Right now as I’m sitting here typing this my head is literally spinning, I feel dizzy and nauseous. This is all normal for abuse victims. Any type of “trigger” will cause a number of different physical issues. The dizziness and nauseousness are mild compared to some of the other issues it can cause. I use to experience these and many others a lot more often Continue reading “Sharing Isn’t Easy”